darryl angus. my retrospect; looking back at my past...

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Perfection Eluded

This morning I woke up,

Bursting with confidence,

Overflowing with excitement,

I was convinced I'd done it,

Convinced I had succeeded

When I found out the news,

I was crushed,

Feeling empty and broken,

But somehow I managed,

To pull myself together,

Determined not to cry

Determined to be fine

Disappointment can be bitter

You feel as if you've lost your worth

But without disappointment,

We have nowhere left to go

Hope can be amazing,

You feel ready to face a better future

Because without hope,

We are forever lost

This morning I woke up,

Grasping for perfection,

Tonight I fall asleep --

Perfection eluding me,

But hope residing in my heart.

Labels: breaking point

i don't believe in love at first sight. i believe in chance and serendipity.

darryl angus in retrospect; Tuesday, September 30, 2008

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

time check

time check.
darryl will drag his weary body back home at 0300hrs.
-good night and good bye-

this is absurd!
this is WTF!
THIS IS THE LIFE OF A UNIVERSITY CHEMISTRY STUDENT!

Labels: Daily Rants

i don't believe in love at first sight. i believe in chance and serendipity.

darryl angus in retrospect; Wednesday, September 24, 2008

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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

screwed up emotions.

its 145am right now.. but i am feeling damn exhilarated!!
finished my first draft of my essay.
gosh i love the quietness and serenity of uni at night!
all other serenity just pales in comparison.

its always hard to kick start an essay.
but the immense satisfaction in writing your concluding statement just sends you up up away!!

Labels: Daily Rants

i don't believe in love at first sight. i believe in chance and serendipity.

darryl angus in retrospect; Tuesday, September 23, 2008

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Saturday, September 13, 2008

intense week over. more to come!

The intense week's over~ somehow i managed to survived through it without breaking down. It was excruciating and crazy~ 4 assignments due, i don't know how.. but despite all the procrastination and lack of self motivation. I managed to meet the deadlines~ Getting all sickky made the whole situation harder and harder to grasp. I don't even know if i'm on firm ground.. have i made the right decision in pursuing this undergraduate degree in Chemistry? i hope i have.

Its heart-warming to know that when you're down in the doldrums.. and just six feet from the edge, You still got your family, your friends and definitely your bolster to hug tightly when everything just isn't going right.

Well i had steamboat last night at Mitre Street, it was great jjust sitting down and chilling with your pals. Over here, all of us are supportive towards each and everyone~ cuz in this land of uncertainty - we certainly need all the help we can get.

Well i'm looking forward to webcaming with the family tmr =D!

Assignments to do this weekend.
1. Essay- An emissions trading regime will ameliorate the global consequences of the greenhouse effect. Discuss -[1600 words]
2.Critical Writing of an Environmental Article.[700 words]
3.CHEM 3007 X-Ray Photoelectron Spectroscopy Write-Up
4.CHEM 2056 Expt 5
5.CHEM 3009 Expt 6
6.CHEM2041 Online Test

-gosh i'm so fcking excited now!-

Labels: Daily Rants

i don't believe in love at first sight. i believe in chance and serendipity.

darryl angus in retrospect; Saturday, September 13, 2008

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Wednesday, September 03, 2008

it's been awhile.

its been a really long time since i've updated my blog
Apologies to my mates @ Singapore.

Gosh it just hasn't been a smooth start and transition that i've been looking forward to over here.

Schoolwork's crazy. I'm constantly bombarded by assignments and reports..
Days are spent in school till midnight.. but i aint revising~ on the other hand i'm trying to meet my deadlines and submit them praying i won't fuck them up..
the pressure to not fuck up is horrendous.. i hate mathematical calculations.. i hate synthesis reactions.. sometimes i wonder why am i doing chemistry..
In a way i feel blessed that i have fellow Singaporeans over here who have been really helpful in guiding me along.

Well the month of August was filled with interesting events. It was my housemate's 21st birthday party over @ our place.. it was fun playing host to them~ i was a pretty bad host i guess... getting wasted in the end.. But i'm glad she had fun =) Ekka, a unique event held in Brisbane was a blast~ its like this mega fun-fair! the damage to my wallet was pretty bad.. but i had fun! the freestyle motorcross, watching holden and ford cars drifting around the stadium, fireworks just couldnt make my weekend any better.

Its been almost 2mths since i've been here. I wonder how's everyone doing back home. Gosh i miss everyone.. i miss the comfort of going home to home-cooked food with a sumptous food spread coupled with SOUP!. i miss the gang~ miss going out for late supper with them. i miss my bimbotic yet freakingly adorable sister.. so many other i miss[s].

i shall have to trouble everyone to head to facebook to view photos of my past endeavours over here~ will keep updating my blog frequently.

i shall end off with the latest MOST HAPPENING THING!

a lovely saturday,
grocery shopping,
wallet got pickpocketted awayyyyyy,
abot 200 AUD
Singapore IC
Singapore Credit Cards
Auzzie Cards
some memorabilia~

and immense heartache...

Could things get any worse?

i soo need a hug right now...

Labels: Daily Rants

i don't believe in love at first sight. i believe in chance and serendipity.

darryl angus in retrospect; Wednesday, September 03, 2008

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Wednesday, July 30, 2008

the mugging spirit.

i can't believe it.. it's ridiculous! absurd!

it's past 1am

its the second week of school

i've got classes from 8-5 later..

but instead of resting..

i'm mugging and trying to figure out the damn NMR Spectroscopy problems.

fck!

*it suddenly just dawns to me why i always land myself in this kind of precarious situations..

Labels: Daily Rants

i don't believe in love at first sight. i believe in chance and serendipity.

darryl angus in retrospect; Wednesday, July 30, 2008

♥

Monday, July 28, 2008

Operation Mee Hoon Kueh

This's my first time cooking mee hoon kueh~ and it's also my first time eating it! lols.

It began with us going for a run and it was freaking cold..housemate said let's cook mee hoon kueh for dinner~ So now here i am~

The following pictures may portray disturbing images. Please refrain from getting too agitated!

Step 1: Boil the soup with xia mee, abit of salt and chicken stock.

Step 2: Prepare your ingredients.

Fried Ikan Bilis

Diced Chicken

Xiao Bai Cai

Step 3: Play with flour to make dough. Add water slowly till dough becomes firm. Massage dough and have fun playing with it!

Step 4: Split dough into mini-dough balls.

Step 5: Start peeling thin layers of dough and dump into Soup[Step 1]

Step 6: Add ingredients into soup~

Step 7: Serve in a nice bowl with a nice table mat and pray it turns out yummy!

Labels: Daily Rants

i don't believe in love at first sight. i believe in chance and serendipity.

darryl angus in retrospect; Monday, July 28, 2008

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sunday at the library.

going to school on Sunday is so different~ the atmosphere.. the tranquility of it all~
it kinda feels like you can actually go and take a really relaxing walk ard UQ on Sundays.

Well managed to borrow a few books for CHEM 3009 Essay and Presentation~ god knows how long has it been since i go to the library to borrow books.

1.Chemistry Of The Environment
2.Principles Of Fuel Cells
3.Progress in Fuel Cell Research

anyway i had company so it wasn't that bad after all!
and i finally cooked an entire meal on my own!! =D
hope it was nice =)

Labels: Daily Rants

i don't believe in love at first sight. i believe in chance and serendipity.

darryl angus in retrospect; Monday, July 28, 2008

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